Having woken up early this morning with a nightmare unrelated to the police, but related to feelings, I think I can say a big part of what makes me angry here is the sense of helplessness and powerlessness.
The government has the power to destroy my life, even kill me, or a member of my family. The government uses that power arbitrarily. If I defend myself, I might win in court, but my life will still be destroyed. I have no sense that the monster will only go after the wicked anymore. The police are its claws and teeth.
I no longer believe that I have any power over what the government does. I am not well connected enough, or rich enough. There are other people in power, other people with connections. Not me. The best I can do is hope that the beast does not decide to go after me.
I don’t think, that in a republic, people should live that way.